Yoga would probably help if I wasn't too stressed out to do yoga, that is.
Sugar, oh that sweet miracle of distraction, would probably help too but since I don't eat sugar anymore...oh who am I kidding, I've downed so much sugar lately that a mosquito that bit me went into diabetic shock.
So I feel angry with myself because after 4 months of sugar free living (again) I fell off the wagon at a birthday party last Sunday when I told myself "oh, one little piece of cake isn't going to derail me." Wrong! One little piece of cake, one sip of my daughter's rootbeer float, 4 Newman's Own fake Oreos, and one bowl of apple crisp (topped with a disgusting amount of Ready Whip) later (you may substitute the word HUGE into any of those descriptions for accuracy), I feel headache-y myself. (Side note: if any other addicts are out there please chime in and let me know I'm not the only one who struggles with this!)
So back to simplicity I go. Straighten the house. Begin another new box for charitable donations as the last one was just picked up. Go through the mound of papers on my desk, recycle or shred/recycle most of them. File the others. Take out the trash. Put away the 8 pairs of shoes scattered around the kitchen, dining room, and hall. Make the bed. Open the windows. Take a deep breath. Drink a cup of green tea. And start again.
I haven't eaten any sugar today and I've been up since 5:15a.m. so that's a good start. I can manage our schedules, buy detergent tomorrow, pay monthly on the tuition, find a new stylist, heal my toe, e-card my mother and mother-in-law (I can always claim being green rather than being a procrastinator), and put concealer on my zit-scar. That's the beauty of life: every moment that we are alive is a moment of choice. I was choosing stress, thus releasing massive amounts of adrenaline into my system which will only serve to add lines to my now-scarred face. Stress also pumps cortisol into our bodies which increases the craving for sugar and encourages our bodies to retain fat. Now I'm choosing simple, peace-inducing, one-task-at-a-time thoughts which increase serotonin and oxytocin levels in my brain which helps my body sleep well at night, regulate my metabolism during the day, and quiets cravings.
What choice will you make?